For years, too many, in fact, I pretended to be something other than myself for fear of who I might be or that what I truly was maybe unlovable.
For a long time, I chose to ignore the inklings, stirring, muttering, and whispering of my ever-patient heart for I could not understand how to be or do what it wished, and in truth my mind and ego so readily and summarily rejected its wishes, incessantly at every turn.
For a long time, I lived in the shadows hiding from my truth and deluding myself that what I wanted I did not know, or who I was seemed unknown to me, for what I was I, as in my mind, never approved of or liked.
For a very long time, indeed, I waited and healed, I sifted and integrated, I spent time in introspection and reflection to build the strength, courage, resilience and clarity to truly know and discover who I am and to walk free from those things that did not serve me.
Each of us, yes, each of us, are glistening, resplendent diamonds reflecting and refracting light in mystical and marvellous ways, yet the light is clouded or shrouded – some say buried – under a mountain of patterns and programs, including emotions and thoughts, that seem to make it hard to see, feel or know it.
For whatever reason, some of us seem to have a thicker load or a larger mass of patterns to clear before we can truly feel, be and live our authentic selves in a way that is enlivening and enriching for ourselves and others.
Blessed is the one, and noble is the path of one who chooses to come to know themselves truly beyond place and face, space and race. It is both a rewarding and challenging journey that eclipses the divine as one comes to understand themselves intimately at the deepest of levels.
Lay down your defences and embrace who you are, there is raw power in it.
With love, always!